Sunday, February 5, 2012

let's talk about marriage

ughhhh berat nihhhh topiknya ^.~
ok people, seriously! Let's talk about it! Yak, bagi siapa yg belum menikah, boleh ikut nimbrung, karena I tell u, marriage life is really something different! Because it's not about YOU anymore!! 

Sometimes dalam pernikahan ribut dan cek cok itu bumbu! Tapi namanya bumbu, klo kebanyakan juga bikin lidah mengkerut, too many MSG bikin otak bodo atau bahkan berdampak lebih jauh lagi! Orang ribut pun ada bermacam2 penyebabnya, miskomunikasi, tidak mau berkomunikasi, mau menang sendiri, atau bahkan selingkuh. Kita lihat yg kecil aja deh, KOMUNIKASI, ngomong itu gampang, bisa tinggal asal bunyi aja! Tapi Hey!! lidah tak bertulang, hati2 dengan apa yg keluar dari mulutmu!! saya bisa dibilang bermulut lancang dan asal njeplak! dan sudah banyak kejadian, asal bunyi bikin orang lain marah. Dan dalam hal pernikahan, komunikasi itu memegang peran yg sangat penting SEKALI!! Can u imagine, u don't talk with ur spouse after a long day at work? Can u imagine u don't have that routine of pillow talk? Can u imagine?? I can't

Bicara itu sangat penting, tapi ada kalanya kita PEREMPUAN terlalu banyak bicara!! hayoooo yg perempuan, NGACUNG!!! sadar gak klo kadang terlalu banyak bawel sama suami? yg ngomel lah, yg nyuruh ini itu lah, yg minta ini itu lah, yg ngatur ini itu lah atau bahkan ngedumel soal pakaian kontor yg menggantung di ujung tempat tidur, lemari baju yg terbongkar, gelas yg gak pernah nyampe ke tempat cuci, tas, sepatu, yg asal geletakan aja gitu di mana-mana. PASTI PERNAH dong yaaaa?? ;D

Hati2 lho...karena semakin tua, laki2 akan memilih mendengar! artinya? dia akan memilih untuk mendengar yg perlu saja, klo selama hidupnya yg ia dengar hanya omelan, dan nada bernada menyuruh! And women, your Men isn't Ahli Nujum nor Cenayang yg bisa membaca pikiran kita! Jadi kalo ditanya "kamu kenapa sih?" jangan bilang "gak apa2" tapi dengan muka cemberut!! Tell them! Tell them what u want! or remain still forever:D Egois memang klo harus bilang apa yg kita mau selamanya, tapi at least we speak of the truth, at least, persoalannya bisa dibicarakan dan dicari  solusinya bareng2. Jangan lari ke orang lain, boleh curhat dengan teman dekat, tapi jangan kasih 'cucian kotor' ke mereka dan mereka yg cuci. Marriage Life is though, we stick with it, we fix it, we fight!!

for better or for worse....

Friday, February 3, 2012

Making a friend

Susah susah gampang mau cari teman, apalagi di dunia saya ini, yg sudah ibuk2... klo ga temennya sama ibunya temennya anak2, mau cari dimana dong?? Sempet berteman dengan beberapa org yg akhirnya 'membuang' saya entah dengan alasan apa, yg sampe sekarang saya blom tau kejelasannya! ohhh mungkin saya ga populer kali yaaa?? ihihihi... Sedih dan sangat sakit hati... tapi ya sudahlah terima nasib aja, anggep aja mereka bukan temen yg baik buat saya!! Sekarang sedang menjajaki pertemanan lainnya, crossing my finger it will be long last, agak sedikit susah juga karena kendala bahasa menyebabkan saya kebanyakan diem kya sapi ompong ketika perbincangan seru dalam bahasa asing terjadi. Saya mengerti dengan baik, tp karena saya juga tak lancar pun berbahasa asing tsb, akhirnya saya memilih diam dan seperti org menonton pertandingan tenis, saya hanya menengokkan kepala saja ke kiri dan ke kanan, melihat ke arah empunya suara.

Terkadang saya ga enak hati sama mereka, mungkin dipikirnya saya ini tulalit atau apalah, karena setiap saya mendengar cerita mereka, sepertinya cerita saya sehari2 jadi gak ada apa2nya. Jadi bingung apa yg mau di share bukannya gak mau cerita, bukannya gak mau share, tp sumpah deh, gak boong, lebih enak pake bahasa sendiri, bisa kya kaleng rombeng buat sharing!! Tapi, mungkin itu juga maksud Tuhan ya, membiarkan saya ketemu org2 dengan bahasa asing ini, supaya saya gak kya kaleng rombeng :p 

oh betapa inginnya saya duduk dan bercerita dengan teman2 saya seperguruan!! hihihihi pasti udah ngakak2 ga jelas... dan keluar semua uneg2...

mimpi aja...

Anjing Bisu

Apa jadinya klo ada anjing bisu ya? gonggongnya bakal kya apa ya??? *mikir keras* baru tadi pagi rasanya ingin nyekek itu anjing biadab!! minta ampun deh meraung2nya gak ketulungan. Hari dimana saya bisa tidur agak sedikit lama *catet* 30min aja!!!! tetep aja TERGANGGU!! emang udah nasib kali ya gw...ga bisa tidur lamaan dikit, yg suara anjing lah, yg suara anak2 brisik mampus lah, yg suara burung berkicau lah, blom lagi anjing2 tetangga lainnya!!! ahhhhh kupret bener!!! it's ruin my morning!!!! Apalagi klo sore I can't sleep AT ALL because im the one who's taking care of the baby...so at least sepagi ini, pengen merem menikmati bunga tidur, meringkuk di balik hangatnya selimut dan lemak2 tubuhku!!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh GAK BISA.... MARAH!!!
sekian!

Friday, January 27, 2012

Its not easy to be me...

"The third and most severe type of postpartum psychological disturbance is known as postpartum psychosis. It is characterized by dramatic changes in behavior, including memory loss, auditory and visual hallucinations, depression, and severe mood swings. Hospitalization and antidepressant medication may be recommended. Postpartum psychosis appears during the first few weeks after birth, and affects one in one thousand postpartum women"

"Sometimes a mother who is depressed may believe that breastfeeding is causing her problem. Although some studies indicate that depression is more prevalent among nursing mothers, these studies don't screen for other factors, such as social isolation or lack of support from family members. Breastfeeding is not a contributing factor to postpartum depression. In fact, the hormonal changes after birth occur more gradually when a mother breastfeeds"

(Denise Boyle
Buffalo Grove, Illinois, USA
From: LEAVEN, Vol. 29 No. 4, July-August 1993, pp. 53-4, 5)

for me, it's not about my baby nor breastfeeding nor lack of sleep
for me it's always about being here (Papua)
for me, it's about no supporting from friends.. I thought I have friends, best friends, but they betrayed me!! they've been so busy with their life, and not even once visit me and my baby. I don't trust them anymore and it hurt me A LOT.
for me, it's about taking care of everything by myself! I'm tired
for me, it's about so many things that happened lately makes me DROP and just wanna FLY away from all this mess, with my baby.
for me, it's about finding me! I can't see ME anymore...
I'm sinking...
And all I can hear is their voices...
I don't see ME anymore..
I miss the old ME

theme song forever: Fight for Fighting "SUPERMAN"

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird, I'm more than a plane
I'm more than some pretty face beside a train
And it's not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd, but don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed, but won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me

Up, up and away, away from me
It's all right, you can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy, or anything

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me

I'm only a man
In a funny red sheet
I'm only a man
Looking for a dream

I'm only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it's not easy

Its not easy to be me

My 5 mo baby girl


My baby Girl Eleora is 5mo now!!! yihaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! it's almost MPASI time!!! I've been quite busy lately looking for her feeding utensils and stroller and booster seat and rice powder!!! wohoooo...now it's time for browsing some tips and recipe!!!